So here is the problem I was facing last year:
- My job was ridiculous…12-16 hour shifts, working nights, in one of the most physically and mentally challenging jobs I’d ever had, as part of the Amazon management team.
- I was sleeping 4-6 hours a day…maybe.
- I was living on Kind bars with an occasional carne asada burrito and a beer at 4am.
- I had six other people living in my home at the time but never had a meal with any of them anymore.
- My husband and I hadn’t slept in the same bed at the same time in a very long time due to my hectic schedule and sheer exhaustion.
- My dad had been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and I had not been able to go see him.
- My oldest daughter, after getting herself through high school, because I was certainly not much help, was about to leave for college.
My life had evolved into a a soul sucking, mind numbing routine that rolled blindly one day into the next. I wasn’t eating right, sleeping right, certainly not physically or mentally nurturing myself or any of my relationships. I was done.
I said “F___ this, I am 50 years old and I am going to make a turnaround.” And that is where my blog and my turnaround year began.
- I hastily gave notice at midnight in a fit of rage….not one of my better ideas.
- I spent the next three months catching up on sleep…this was a great idea, and I did it until I felt myself be happy to wake up again. This can be such a shock after dreading each wake up everyday for so long.
- Spent time every month with my dad until he passed in September.
- Went on a family vacation with all my kids to Maui.
- Spent time with my daughters.
- Cooked food for my family, amazing food.
- Drank entirely too much wine…at night time like normal people do.
- Met my neighbors, went to church, made new friends, hung out with old ones.
- Consciously worked on reconnecting with my husband who had been the best support ever, even during the craziest of times and was equally exhausted by it all.
I basically spent the past year immersed in all things I had been missing for so long.
So was a turnaround the right thing to do? Well…there are a gajillion things I would do differently if I could do them over again, but I know without a doubt, it was absolutely the right call for me.
Turnarounds are by no means specific to 50 year olds, I just happened to be 50 when it happened. They can happen anytime that you are finally ready to set boundaries and stand up for what is best for you and your world.
Chances are your turnaround will be 100% different than mine. How could they not be? Our lives are different, we are all different people. The point of me sharing my turnaround story is not so that you will follow my exact path, but so that you will find the encouragement necessary to move towards your own path when your life calls for it.
I don’t know what is next for me, but I do know, whatever it is, it will serve those values critical to me and my family. I would love to help you with your turnaround! Want to float a few ideas on turning your life around? Want encouragement to support you as you make your way? Please join our Facebook Group,
You can do this! Thanks for stopping by!